Daily Heil

Depression hits when everything is going just fine. There is no rhyme, reason, just a cumbersome, debilitating (I want to say cloud, but it’s heavier) that stops you in your tracks. For me it gets worse when sleep is wrong. I have an 8-5 job, weekdays. This weekend I stayed up all night, went to […]

Stools and gatekeepers

At what point will I stop being freaked out by stool coming out of my stomach? Changing my bag and a solid-enough-to-have-a-shape stool is snaking its way out. It’s rectangular, I guess, following the shape of the hole they fashioned. You have no control over it. Nor do you know when it’s going to come […]

Try Honesty

I bought a wireless keyboard. It’s good but I still can’t do it lying down. I am being worked ragged. It’s kind of atrocious. I’m exhausted. I have an exam I’m too exhausted to do anything about. The thought of having to get up on a Saturday morning to go to class makes me feel […]

Falling behind

Fallen behind on my blogging again. Haven’t been recording my dreams which seems a shame (to me) because I like having this little record here. Anyway, here is a song of mine, not mine, a cover of mine. I’ve done it before, the song, but this time I am actually drumming. And I don’t think […]

Hitting nails on heads, sexuality and gender.

With a woman: I will be a woman with breasts, a clitoris, a vagina and an hourglass figure. I will be a man with a chest and a phallus. I will be both, or neither. With a man: I will be a man, with muscles and stubble, sideburns, a beard and an Adam’s apple. I […]