Ileostomy surgery

I haven’t felt able to blog lately. I don’t really know where to begin. Everything going on right now seems to personal, in many ways. It’s always been helpful to write things down. This past couple of weeks of my life have been really hard. I had my surgery, subtotal colectomy and ileostomy, which was […]

The wound

Imagine if you had a wound, a wide one, like the skin had been freshly stripped off. It’s coated in yellow and clear pus. Imagine the wound was constantly being stretched and touched and never allowed to heal. Imagine it’s inside of you. Imagine it’s a self-regenerating wound that your body’s antibodies constantly attack to […]

Tale of the angry overthinker

Life deals the cards and we’re all bluffing Time heals no wounds I’m angry I shout at people who deserve it Like the boy doing a wheelie in front of my car Like the man, that man I’m angry at you God knows what I’d do if I saw you Probably hug you – I […]

In my prison

In my prison I am never alone In my prison there is no reward for good behaviour In my prison it is too hot or too cold In my prison I hear children being toilet trained In my prison I am not supposed to stay for any length of time In my prison there are […]

Your hands around my throat

What you did to me makes me want to cry. Especially when I’m drunk. And I want you to know that. I want you to know how terrible you make me feel, through your selfish, thoughtless actions. I can still feel your hands around my throat. Alcohol is great. It gives me confidence. Everyone is […]

Psyching myself up… to eat a crumpet.

Most people probably don’t think of eating a crumpet as very brave. I mean, it’s easy, eating a crumpet, right? This morning I woke up at 7am. Went to the toilet. Now bear in mind, I don’t recall drinking any picolax (super strong laxatives) yesterday. But everything, everything came out. I don’t know if there […]