Something snapped. Wrong place, wrong time. Reading about yourself, on the internet. Or other people like you. Look up meetings in your area. No meetings in your area. Swansea, Bristol. Inconvenient times. 12 steps. As if it were a flight of stairs. Get to the landing. When you live in a fucking bungalow. Infested. Dry […]
I’m doing it because I want this imaginary woman in the sky (who is a real person) to be proud of me. This nebulous, sweeping entity. I am a fraud. A latch-grip fraud. And I cannot explain.
You’re a victim of your own mind misfortune favours you now everything could be so different destined for this loneliness it kills Master manipulators sap your strength fed up of fighting dirty Stability, a dream you’re too scared to have Defects emerge make themselves known mostly to you Overthinking Overdrinking Empty stomach full mind anxiety […]
I imagine her leaving a trail of people in her wake Each as heartbroken as the one before Fresher and newer She leaves us vapid Blame this entity For your stolidness At your own risk haemoglobin 121 – a song http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=qlVw72drHwo
Cords and signals I am repairable You can paint hazard circles of black and yellow on me Watch the slow mo footage Pause the tape and rewind Calculate Points of impact – Your failed crash test dummy With a neck designed to snap In just the right way
Scared of friendship. Acquaintances, some kind of illion, maybe. Never sure if I want to date them or be them. The feeling of being trapped. Belonging. Assumptions. Pain. Words. Industrial fetishes. Being lost. Feeling neither worthless nor worthwhile. History. Repetition. Shirley Bassey. Pretence. Trapped in an unhealthy situation. Habitual clicking. Fear and only fear. Adrenaline. […]