Testosterone as a calming influence.

I feel like I’m relaxing into myself. Dark hairs spread down my thighs and up my stomach. I like the patterns they create. Stubble under my chin. A voice less harsh. Two semitones lower. I feel extremes of emotion less intensely. Positive, calming. There is no rage. There is a sex drive but it is […]

Stools and gatekeepers

At what point will I stop being freaked out by stool coming out of my stomach? Changing my bag and a solid-enough-to-have-a-shape stool is snaking its way out. It’s rectangular, I guess, following the shape of the hole they fashioned. You have no control over it. Nor do you know when it’s going to come […]

Try Honesty

I bought a wireless keyboard. It’s good but I still can’t do it lying down. I am being worked ragged. It’s kind of atrocious. I’m exhausted. I have an exam I’m too exhausted to do anything about. The thought of having to get up on a Saturday morning to go to class makes me feel […]

Yes man (woman).

I have been blogging a bit less lately because I’ve been doing things for a change. I’ve become ‘Yes man.’ In that I say yes to things instead of no. And I’m a woman, not a man. Still technicalities… And I feel sooo much better. Sooo much less depressed. My ex is in the process […]